|Because of Cas feels!|
My ConfessionI never really thought about my lack of sexual interest before society confronted me with it.Aenea-Jones
It took me quite a while to notice guys as anything more than "other people", and when I did, it was more a group pressure thing than real interest.
I even had a boyfriend then, but not because I particularly liked the guy. Having a boyfriend in your teens is a status symbol. Have one, you're cool, have none, you're not.
Of course, back then things weren't that clear to me. I went with the flow.
For a very long time, I wondered what is wrong with me that I don't enjoy sex, that It makes me feel awkward and that I have no desire to go out and date. Society made me believe it is wrong to be like that. I was ashamed of myself, of my flaws and my obvious failure of being a full-fledged human being.
You define yourself through others. You try to figure out who you are, and you look at others for guidance, for something you can identify with. But you only limit yourself with that, and not finding si
I don't like gettin up but once I'm up I stay up till past midnight sometimes...|
I do a mix of tradition drawing (That may or may not be colored on the computer), drawings on Gimp2 with my tablet, color other people's lineart, write stories (rare for this site), and take amatuer photographs...
My authentic japanese name is 安西 Anzai (peaceful west) 桃子 Momoko (peach tree child).